Have you ever known you were supposed to do something, and either kept procrastinating–or, my personal favorite–continuing to say, “I’m not good enough?”
Yeah–me, too.
Have you ever had those things repeatedly back, and kept thinking, “Oh, its just a coincidence. Someone else was meant to do it.”
Yeah–me, too.
And I’m finally stepping up and praying about something, and stepping into something I’ve tried to run from for years.
Roughly seven weeks ago, a few events happened. Some words got spoken. Basically, I was told that I’m not who God has created me to be. There’s more truth in that than I’d like to admit. And looking back over my life, there were a lot of times I felt like I wasn’t equipped or “wasn’t called”…or, you know what, let’s just put the real label on it–FEAR.
I was terrified of what it would look like to be a leader, of what I’d have to lay down or pick up to become a leader. Here’s the thing about being a leader: When you’re called to it, everyone around you who knows you knows it. Eventually, someone will call you out on it.
For me, it was a 16 year old I was talking to, telling her this wild story about how I was called to the World Race. I’ve known her since she was in 7th grade, she’s one of the Young Life girls. Funny how Jesus uses people like that, huh?
I don’t have much to say beyond this right now. I simply wanted to get it out there. This will probably be my shortest blog post ever. But here’s what I’m going to end this one with:
What are you running from? Why are you running from it?
